Blue

1/12/2021

Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all of your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." (NIV)

This is a place of honesty. Actually, your hostess knows no other way to be. So, I will tell you all that I am feeling weary today. Often times when I feel this way, it is because a combination of things out of my control are looming large overhead. I am aware enough to understand that I cannot change the circumstances that surround the people I love. I pray fervently and try to offer words of support and encouragement as best as I can, but sometimes it all just dries up. It has also been an extended time of waiting for answers and God's direction. The Lord is sharpening and forging so many of us into steel, and today is one of the heat days where His hammer is pounding me into shape. I long for the cold water bath that brings relief.  

Recently, we have all had to find ways of staying focused and balanced both mentally and spiritually. In this time of global pandemic, we certainly need to be creative with the ways we are getting our spiritual nourishment. Virtual church services have been a huge blessing, but they are not the same as being in place of worship with fellow believers. My church is a special place full of people who love God and each other. There are no lines drawn between leadership and the congregation, we are all family, and I miss my family.

This time has kept many of us away from blood family as well. Again, technology has been a blessing, but I miss being able to see those I hold dear. Even though we all live far apart, at least we had the option of visiting one another. The thing I miss most about all of these relationships is the warmth of togetherness...and hugs, I miss hugs. 

I would say, during this unusual period in life, I have had times when I have felt anxious, but today it is more of a blue kind of day. I know my God understands these times of sadness, for He understands absolutely everything I could ever go through or feel. I also know that He is listening to the silent cry of my heart, even when the words don't come. So today, as always, I will find a place of rest in His arms knowing that this feeling will pass, and joy will soon return.