Query

5/28/2020

John 16:23 “And in that day ye shall ask Me nothing.”

Do I ask too many questions? Boy, this is a loaded question for someone like me. I would like to say that my incessant questioning is because of a searching, inquisitive, and curious intellectual mind and soul, but alas, for me if is something connected to my lifelong battle. You see, questioning is how the OCD manifested itself most of my life, well before I was even diagnosed. I was technically a checker, but not of door knobs, ovens, and lights; my checking was always about people’s safely and emotional comfort. Both my husband and son have said that I developed a way to ask the same question fifty different ways until I received the desired answer to sooth my worried mind, or to kick me into action mode. I still do this sometimes, but now I am much more aware of those times. My guys are very patient with me, and sometimes need to give me gentle reminders. I’m working on it guys, I promise.

Today, Chambers is making me think about how much I ask God about things. Now for a worrier who knows that is not where God would have me be, it can sometimes be like I am on the spinning wheel of faith and doubt. Sometimes the arrow lands on faith, and I am trusting God in all things. Sometimes the arrow lands on doubt, and I ask and ask God over and over again, badgering Him if you will. These moments are not my finest for sure, although I like to believe God knows it all comes from a place of love for others. I am so thankful for His grace.

In order to walk in total faith, knowing that God is in control of all things and His will is unfolding in exactly the perfect way, Chambers says, “You have to come to the place of entire reliance on the resurrection life of Jesus which bring you into perfect contact with the purpose of God.” Entire reliance and prayer without ceasing seem so impossible in a world that tugs and batters, yet that is what we are called to do. Isn’t it interesting to think about how transformative it would be if I could do such a thing, or if every believer could? What would our world look like?

Again, as always, I am a work in progress.