Sarah Heartburn

5/1/2020

2 Corinthians 5:7 “I have to lead my life in faith, without seeing Him”

I would say that most people who know me would agree that I tend to be hyperemotional. My mom used to call me “Sarah Heartburn” when I was young, because I often dramatized EVERYTHING. I must have been a lot of fun to live with. Sorry about that, sibs.

I may not be quite that way now, but I can certainly swing from high to low and vice-versa.  I still feel things very deeply, although my release mechanism is more efficient. This has most definitely come from my relationship with Jesus. When He became number one in my life, I gained clarity and a deeper understanding of the temporal nature of all things. I was able to see situations, other people, and even myself differently. God’s word became what I sifted everything through, and where I have always found the guidance and wisdom I needed. When I spend time in God’s word and in prayer, my spirit is truly at peace. I get balance from the Holy Spirit that nothing else in this world can give me.

Being an emotional being, I sincerely love my mountaintop periods with God. Those times when God’s leading is so clear that I shake with excitement. There is nothing better than being inspired by God. The resolve, especially for someone like me, is to hear God in the valley or desert, when God seems far away; the dark nights of the soul. In these times, it “feels” like God is not near, but that is never true. It is always my job to pray for a quiet mind and stillness in my soul, so that I can hear Him, for He will never leave me or forsake me.

Chambers writes, “If we try to reintroduce the rare moments of inspiration, it is a sign that it is not God we want. We are making a fetish of the moments when God did come and speak, and insisting He must do it again; whereas what God wants us to do is to walk by faith.”