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Wednesday, February 5, 2020

The Scene


2/5/2020
Philippians 2:17 “Yea, and if I be offered upon the sacrifice and service of your faith, I joy and rejoice with you all."

Chambers says, “I do not want God to choose my work. I want to choose the scenery of my own sacrifice; I want to have the right kind of people watching and saying, ‘Well done’ “

Almost five years ago, my family moved from the beautiful area we had lived for 20 years. I struggled. I missed my friends and the job I had in education that I loved so much. I still do, actually, but it has become easier over time.  Before my mother went home to be with Jesus, I spent my time helping remotely with her care by contacting agencies and medical staff. I did not work for three years after moving. Sixteen months ago, I was hired to do a job I had never done before. To say it wasn’t my wheelhouse is putting it mildly.

I loved the organization and my coworkers, but the actual position did not come easily for me. I was very open with my boss about the struggles I was having, and she was always supportive and encouraging. A blessing. Most days, I was hanging on by a thread which I was not accustomed to in my work. I felt that I was letting everyone around me down.

Interestingly, during my job search I prayed VERY specifically for certain things: part time, a short commute, caring coworkers, and a safe environment. This job ticked off every one of those boxes, so I was confused by my struggle and very frustrated. Every day I asked God to change my circumstances, this was not for me. Oh ye of little faith! God was refining and preparing me, I just didn’t know it yet. He was also blessing my life by bringing incredible people into it, one of whom helped keep me sane with her kindness and calm demeanor. She did daily self-care check-ins with me. God sent me an angel just when I needed one. He tends to do that.

Now, the reason God brought me to this organization is crystal clear; He had work for me to do. Over the past few months, I have been able to share my testimony with some very special and dear people. God opened those doors wide! I have had deep and meaningful conversations about the love and saving grace of Jesus. I have been able to bare my soul and talk about mercy. I have been able to pray with these precious souls. I was even a small part of God’s Holy Word being placed into their hands. To God be the glory!

Things like “humbled to my core” and “blessed” do not even begin to describe how this has affected me. All that time I was wondering why I was there, and thinking I wasn’t going to make it, but God gave me the strength to hold on. He had a purpose all along. I did not set the scene, but I am just so thankful He let me be in it.

“Are you ready to be not so much as a drop in a bucket – to be so hopelessly insignificant that you are never thought of again in connection with the life you served? Oswald Chambers


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2 comments:

Mary Marin Taylor said...

And so many of us are forever changed by your trust in God to understand that you had been placed in our paths for reasons that were not immediately understood. We are blessed! Thank you, Lehann!

Unknown said...

GOd always puts us where He wants us to be. Then it's up to us to see the opportunity and trust Him. I know I struggle with this sometimes. Pray for me to be bolder and not care what the world thinks.