Heed

3/12/2020

Exodus 20:19 “And they said unto Moses, Speak thou with us and we will hear: but let not God speak with us least we die.”

Have you ever seen or spoken to someone and gotten a Holy Spirit nudge? You become aware of that person’s struggle or loneliness and think, “They could use some support. I am going to send them a card this week,” and then not do it? This happens with me all the time. God places someone on my heart, and impresses on me that the person could use a little extra love and concern, so I have every intention of reaching out, and then… I don’t.  Ugh! I do not disobey God deliberately, I just let the busyness of life push in and forget all about what He wanted me to do; it is such an awful excuse. There are also instances I feel moved to join a group that reaches out to someone who is going through a hard time, and then…I don’t. “Phew” I often think, “I’m so glad other people remembered.” Every time I don’t pay attention to God, I always feel guilty and make all kinds of pledges to do better in the future but then…I don’t. Chambers says, “Once we realize that we have been ‘disrespecting’ God all the time, we are covered with shame and humiliation because we have not heeded Him.” I am always asking God to forgive me when I disregard His call on my life, when what I should be focusing on is paying full attention to His direction, and devoting time to doing what He asks of me; giving Him all that I have and all that I am.

I have noticed that if I speak a Holy Spirit nudge out loud and ask someone to hold me accountable, I am much more apt to what God has asked of me. It is a lot harder for me to neglect acting on God’s urging when I have someone checking in. My son has always been a champion accountability partner. Bringing anything into the light that is an area of disobedience to God and steeping that area in contrition and prayer is transformative. As I say during my prayer time every morning, “Thank you, Dear Lord, for giving me another chance to do better today than yesterday. “