1/19/2020
Genesis 15:12
“There is a darkness
which comes from excess of light, and then is the time to listen.” Oswald Chambers
Have you ever been woken
up from a sound sleep by someone throwing open the curtains and letting the
brilliant morning sun shine in on you, making you cover your head? Or maybe you
were in a pitch black room when suddenly every light gets turned on at once,
forcing you to squeeze your eyes shut. Sometimes the setting sun comes through
your car windshield at just the right angle, and suddenly you cannot see a thing.
These times bring an excess of light that creates darkness, and sometimes it is
easier to adjust to that light than others.
Times of darkness in our
lives, “a dark night of the soul” as Father Henry Nouwen put it, leave us lost.
Often times we look outside of our relationship with God for help, when this
is exactly the time to be seeking Him only. I know this was true for me. I
looked for peace and answers in books, from my family and friends, from doctors,
and the internet (I would not recommend that!), and anywhere else in this world
I could think of. I was putting my confidence in everything but God. My mind
and body were in a torrent that I had no control over, and my world moved from
darkness to black. During this time I prayed, of course, and asked God “why”
all the time, but what I didn’t do was listen. I was not still in His presence.
It wasn’t until the darkness overtook me fully that I finally cried out, “Jesus take
ALL of it, I need only You.” That’s when the light of God’s healing began, and
it was so brilliant it blinded me.
I could not see in the of the light of God’s Holy Majesty, but I finally was able to listen. I yielded control fully to Him, and
He led me slowly out of the darkness and into the light of His abounding grace,
healing, and love. I found His purpose for that time of silence, and also a
deeper, truer, and bolder faith than I had ever had before. It was in the light
of who He is, that I could finally find freedom.
I Am – Mark Schultz
2 comments:
This is one of my biggest struggles. I want so badly to give it all to God. I know his plan for me is amazing... But so many times I fall back to trying to fix it myself... So hard. Thank you so much for sharing this with me ❤️
I understand completely. My goal is always release. Sending you hugs, prayers, and much love.
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