Balance

4/2/2022

John 16:33 "I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world."

My husband's new job is EXTREMELY demanding on his time. This has affected the balance of our lives dramatically. He gets phone calls during his "off" hours (which really don't exists) all the time. This morning, (it's Saturday) he had to go in to cover one of his technicians that was not able to be at work early. A couple of hours later, he had to go back in to take care of another issue. This afternoon he had multiple phone calls, with one being quite long. This all after being away for three days this week. I was looking forward to spending the day together but that was not to be. As I sit here writing this post he is on his phone texting about another issue. I am very glad he is at least home with me but he is often very distracted.

I have to say that his job is very important, as he works for the state air ambulance service. Not only does he strive to ensure the safety of the pilots and medical crews, but he also needs to consider the individuals being treated and flown to whatever hospital can provide the beast care for their medical issue. It is a huge responsibility and one he takes very seriously. I greatly admire his commitment to the mission and his dedication to safety. I am, however, a weary wife. 

He used to be my partner in life, and now he has part-time involvement at best. He is always exhausted at the end of his long days and also on the weekends. I have been keeping the home fires burning, so to speak, and carrying more than I ever have before. I have been waiting and praying for him to be able to achieve some semblance of work/life balance, but he is caught in a never ending whirlwind of decision making, paperwork, and team management. Thankfully, he listens to my concerns and sees all the things that I do, he just cannot figure out a way yet to slow things down. 

So as not to add more to his plate, I am searching for the lessons that God can teach me through this difficult situation. I know He is teaching me to be more patient and encouraging towards my husbands career. This is very difficult for me because his job has been a trigger in one way or another for many years, although balance was never the issue before. God is also teaching me how to communicate better by illuminating when my husband may not be able to hear my emotions or concerns because of his own exhaustion. God is teaching me to pray for my husband instead of complaining that things are not happening the way I want them to. God is helping me to treasure the uninterrupted moments that we have together because they are fewer than ever before. God is helping me though this personal tempest, because He is the only one who can. So, even though there isn't much balance in our lives right now, God is keeping me spiritually balanced and using this situation to draw me closer to Him.