Admitting

2/20/2022

Hebrews 13:5 "Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have. For he has said, 'I will never leave you nor forsake you.'"

Sometimes, I am embarrassed to admit, I am not very content. I get to thinking about the things I would love to have in life, and how most seem so unattainable for me. One of my dreams is to have a lake house. Now, I do already own a very lovely house with a major river only a few blocks away. Our neighborhood is very peaceful and filled with friendly people. Our tiny town is located close to all amenities, yet feels like it is miles away form everything. Our home is the perfect size for our family. I love our home, and yet... 

Why can't I just appreciate my blessing instead of going to that place where my mind and heart wander to the thoughts of wanting more? These feelings don't happen often, but when they do, they really affect me. I become sullen and antsy. Today I am feeling this way. A beautiful house came on the market on my favorite lake in the area, and I have been obsessively looking at it the past few days. After showing my husband once again today, he reminded me how impractical it would be for us to move there. I know he is right, but that fact doesn't quench the desire. To make matters worse, I popped on Facebook and the first thing I saw was someone I know being gifted a car, and a very expensive one at that. Sigh. This is just the sort of thing the evil one uses to make me feel worse. 

Shame on me!!! I have so much to be grateful for, and I know that there are so many people who struggle just to make ends meet. I have love in my life and a strong family unit, while many people don't. I have so much in my life, but sometimes I lose sight of that. During these down times I lose sight of my biggest blessing of all: I am a beloved and redeemed child of the Most High. How can I want or need anything more than that? 

I am, as always, a work in progress.