Weak Spot

 

1/14/2021

Psalm 34:18 "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit." (ESV)

I am terrible at reaching out and asking for help or support. I know that this is not a great quality, and it is very self-isolating. I don't even really ask for prayer when it comes to something personal. However, I can very willingly ask others to pray for those I love. I also can offer prayers, support, and encouragement to anyone and everyone around me. Unfortunately, my husband and my son suffer from the same affliction. We have many people in our lives who love us and would be there for us whenever we needed them, but we have become fiercely insulary. I will admit that our world of Covid has not helped that much.

I think I get this from my parents; they were very private people. I remember growing up with the saying, "You should never air your dirty laundry in front of others." This unconsciously translated into, "Take care of your own issues," I guess. Even at the very depth of my illness, it was just the three of us. My sisters knew some of what was going on, and did their best to keep in touch with us regularly, but we really had no care from anyone around us. It was a very lonely and difficult time. 

We are currently going through another time of difficulty like so many other people right now. My husband is really taking the brunt of this personal crisis, and it is very difficult to witness as he is usually a happy-go-lucky kind of guy. He loves to joke and laugh, and is a very positive person, so we are not used to him struggling. We are reading our Bibles together and praying, seeking answers and direction from God. We turn to Him always for everything. Sadly my husband, like I was recently, is feeling very weary. We have to remember, though, that God can speak to us through the care and concern of others.

My son and I have done our best to support and cheer him up, but we are a little too close to the situation. Tonight during dinner, we both encouraged him to call some of the trusted Christian men in his life. At first he resisted because this is far out of his comfort zone, but, as I sit here writing, I can quietly hear him on the phone talking. I am so grateful that he was able to hear the call of the Holy Spirit telling him to release his discomfort. I am sure that he is currently being blessed.