Casting Cares

 

                            (My sweet hubby had one of these plants                             waiting or me after work today as a pick-me-up)

1/28/2021

1 Peter 5:6-7 "Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

There is a newer contemporary Christian song called "Truth Be Told" by Matthew West. It is about how we, as believers, often say "I'm fine" when we are struggling. Ones of the lines is, "I don't know why it's so hard to admit it, when being honest is the only way to fix it." These words ring so true to me, because bringing issues out into the light is so vital to healing. I know letting others into my battle is important, but I never want my witness to suffer because of my weakness and frailty. I fear that it will come across like having a difficult time means I am not fully trusting God. This is a lie of the evil one to create confusion and turn me more inward instead of God-ward. My truth has always been that God carries me through every trial and always gets me to the other side. This can happen in many ways, but sometimes it happens through the support and love of others.

What I struggle with most, the dreaded cocktail of anxiety and OCD, is difficult for many people to understand. Two of the people closest to me, my husband and son, do not truly understand this illness that plagues me. Thankfully, they don't really need to in order to support me and love me through my struggles. When I am hiding my battle, and become so weary that I can no longer put on my armor, that is when I usually turn to them for help. Alas, by that time I am so worn down they practically have to carry me. 

Living in a Covid world, as I have said before, is my perfect storm. I am grateful that God gives me the strength to still be able still to go to work. He has given me grace to be out and about, to maneuver this uncertain world where others can see a true smile through my eyes. He has kept me on my feet through all the storms of the past ten months. I have only gotten to the point of exhaustion a couple of times, which is nothing less than a miracle. Right now I am experiencing a period of weariness and exhaustion, but because I have let those around me in and shared my struggle, I am also feeling loved and supported. I know God will get me through this as He always does. I just need to remember, or honestly to be reminded sometimes, to cast all my cares on Him and lean into and on my Savior. 

Truth Be Told - Matthew West

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4wYkS8Z3Io