Give My All

12/29/2020

John 6:66 “For that time many of His disciples went back, and walked no more with Him.”

“When God gives a vision by His Spirit through His word of what He wants, and your mind and soul thrill to it, if you do not walk in the light of that vision, you will sink into servitude to a point of view which Our Lord never had. Disobedience in mind to the heavenly vision will make you a slave to points of view that are alien to Jesus Christ.”  

                                                                                ~Oswald Chambers

As I draw near to the end of a year of daily writing, I find myself deeply reflective of the journey I have been on. I must admit that in the past, I did not always follow the visions that I had received from God. I would oftentimes run whatever the vision happened to be past someone I knew, and if it did not get the excited reaction that I was feeling, it would drift away from my grasp like a vapor. This would happen because I was putting too much focus on other people’s opinions, and none on following God’s call in my life. If I did not get some sort of confirmation from someone else, I would question the vision. Also, if I did not get someone to join me, I would question my ability to accomplish what God was asking of me alone. I have wasted so much time questioning myself and not fully trusting in God to give me the abilities I needed to accomplish what He asked of me. Thankfully, God never gave up on me.

Over the past couple of weeks, some people have asked what is next for me, and if I am going to continue writing on this platform daily. I do not yet have an answer for them, because I have not gotten a further vision of what comes next. I am, however, excited for the next (pardon the pun) chapter in my journey with God. All I know is that I want to honor Him with all I do and continue to grow closer to Him every day. This is my most fervent prayer. If another vision comes, I will welcome it fully and trust God to provide the strength to endure all that is asked of me. This is not the end for me, nor should I rest on the accomplishment of this year, for it belongs to God.

The verse above refers to people who were following Jesus, but when He began to say things that were too difficult for them to abide by, they left. The twelve stayed, but at one point when things turned desperate, they deserted Him as well. After Christ’s resurrection, they finally understood what He had been trying to teach them, and (other than Judas) they followed Him and preached to others for the rest of their lives, and also eventually paid the ultimate price for the sake of the Gospel. The Christian life is not about comfort or ease, it is about following Jesus no matter the cost. It is about sharing the Good News of the gospel, even when it is hard. It is about submitting to God’s will for my life, even when I do not understand or feel up for what is being asked of me. Nothing my Savior did was outside the will of the Father, and nothing He endured was easy, but He endured what He did for me. Why, then, should I not be as willing to give my life for Him?