3/1/2020
John 21:17 “Lovest thou Me?”
“Jesus said, ‘Whosoever shall confess Me
before men,’ i.e., confess his love not merely by his words, but by everything
he does.” Oswald Chambers
Do I confess my love for Jesus with
EVERYTHING I do? Hardly. I do try, but always fail because my lack of faith (or
my human nature) gets in the way. For instance, I may feel slighted or hurt by
someone, and believe I am justified in marinating that injury for a while when
I am processing the infraction and damage it incurred. This is never a good
thing, because negativity begins to fester and become a poison in my soul. Since
I am a non-combative (or some may say wimpy) person; I can easily carry an
injury for years, under the pretext of trying to keep the peace; I have done so,
in fact. Even though I had convinced myself that I had forgiven a certain person
in my life, every time something about said person or their family came up, my
reaction was NOT a loving one, even if that reaction was just a part of my
internal monologue. Maybe no one else knew I was still carrying this hurt, but
God sure did, and it influenced my relationship with this person and others for
over three decades. Recently, God dealt with this inner attitude of mine, and
showed me how I was merely presenting a surface forgiveness, but it wasn’t real,
or else I would have felt it in my spirit as well. Reading His word certainly
illuminates these weak areas of my walk and love for Him, and forces me to take
a deeper look at myself. It is never an easy thing to do. Chambers says, “There
can never be a mistake about the hurt of the Lord’s word when it comes to His
child; but the point of revelation.”
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