Darkness

2/14/2020

Matthew 10:27 “What I tell you in darkness, that speak ye in light, and what ye hear in the ear, that preach ye upon the housetops.”

“At times God puts us through the discipline of darkness to teach us to heed Him. Song birds are taught to sing in the dark, and we are put into the shadow of God’s hand until we learn to hear Him.” Oswald Chambers

This spoke such truth to my relationship with God and my journey. I went through an extended period of darkness, and through most of that time I could not hear God. I did a lot of crying out to the Lord and asking why, but my mind and soul were so churned up that I developed a spiritual deafness. I wasn’t listening for God’s answers or direction. I could not hear Him or see any light at all. In desperation, I turned to research and other people, seeking answers in a frenzied swirl of emotion, fear, and sadness. Alas, I found no solutions or peace. Eventually, I had no choice but to be still, for total exhaustion had set in; it was then that I was finally able to hear God in a whisper. Slowly and weakly, like a song bird, He began to teach me to sing in the dark.

Why did this take so long? I was being refined by fire, which is never easy but often necessary. I was so grateful to God for lessons learned and His love and mercy, but also mortified that it took me so long to hear Him. I had walked with the Lord for  many years, but was definitely not where I needed to be in my relationship with Him. My faith journey had dramatically slowed because too much of my focus was on other things. Distraction often holds us captive.

The blessings that continue to ensue from this very difficult time are innumerable. I have, because of this dark time, been able to share my testimony with others: how, when I thought all was lost, God had another plan for my life. During my time of darkness I could not even see a glimmer of light, but now I walk in the radiance of my Savior’s love, peace, strength, and forgiveness. To God be the glory!

Look up Child - Lauren Daigle
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-4Nx2hEhVRE